Blugh, I don't ever feel like saying anything here, but today I guess I do. I probably should be doing my homework, and that painting that has been bothering me, but I don't feel like it right now..

I've been very unhappy with my artwork lately. It seems I can't do anything right. I have a really big problem with shoulders, and don't get me started on inking/lining/whatever.. I come on here to see how other people do it, maybe get some help, and I just go back into my own artwork even more depressed. A good artist should be able to use any program, no matter what, right? I somehow feel like I can't do anything without photoshop, and I don't want to be like that. openCanvas is enough for people to do fantastic things, even v1.1, so how come I am never satisfied? I'm working on a sketch right now (when I should be doing the commissions this sweetheart has been waiting a month for.. sigh..) and it looks great, probably the best I've done in a while, but I can't seem to get to the lineart stage..

my lines aren't smooth enough... not crisp enough.. not strong enough.

Besides that, my family has been getting into fights on a daily basis. My sister has replaced my father, which I hate because I do not like him, and my mother is taking abuse left and right, even from me. I'm supposed to be good, right? I'm supposed to be nice..

I can't stand anyone here, though. I don't know how to change that. I need to get out of this tiny box of a town before I'm stuck here like everyone else.

I just can't stand my family.. or my artwork.. bluhh..

I better stop before I start crying like some baby, haha~ I should work on speech, too.. sigh.